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There have been a few world disasters in my lifetime, generation-defining events, and the ones I remember most clearly were marked with the hideous irony of a perfect blue sky. But the day Gretchen McLean died was miserable and drizzly, with periods of that nasty, keening wind that blows your raincoat hood straight back from your head and whips the garbage on Lexington Avenue into your face. It was appropriate, almost righteous. Towers fall, and the sun should not warm your skin; buses explode, and the breeze should not trace gentle ripples across the reservoir. But on the day that Gretchen died, even the weather seemed to understand its role. Because on the day that the mother of two little boys dies without warning, the wind should absolutely howl.</p> 92 93<p><b>February, the day before</b></p> 94 95<p>âI left the juice box on the counter. You might want to take a paper towel too. He squeezes them when he puts the straw in,â Gretchen tells me. âRight, George?â She pokes little George in the belly.</p> 96 97<p>âAll over me when I put the traw in,â he confirms. Iâm pretty good at deciphering George-speak now, but it took me six or seven months to catch on. Gretchen understood it from the moment it started, which Iâd prefer to chalk up to her intuitive mommy-skills, rather than to my slow-babysitter syndrome.</p> 98 99<p>I walked in the door exactly seven minutes late today, which is an unusual occurrence. Of course, today is the day that Gretchen is in a hurry to leave, and now her meticulousness, which I normally laugh at, is giving me a complex. Iâd love to give her an acceptable excuse for my lateness, but the wrong comment could lead to revelations Iâm not willing to share. I donât want to risk it, even though weâve known each other for two years and, in some ways, are as close as family. The less you know about someone, the easier it is to make up the details, which is exactly what you want to do when it comes to the person who will help raise your children.</p> 100 101<p>Gretchen hands George his shoes and then tears off a paper towel, folds it up, and puts it under the juice box on the counter. âOr would you rather I put it in the stroller, Charlotte?â</p> 102 103<p>âThe counter is fine.â</p> 104 105<p>âHey, I meant to text you,â she says, âand then I think I forgotâdo you have plans tonight?â</p> 106 107<p>âDo you need me to stay late?â</p> 108 109<p>âWe thought we might go out,â says Gretchen. âBut no big deal if you canât stay. Weâll do it another night.â I wonder if she means that, or if she made the reservation a while ago and took it for granted that I would be able to stay. I rarely say no to her, and I know Iâm not the only one.</p> 110 111<p>âI think it will be fine.â I calculate the extra hours in my head and console myself with the thought. âYou should go out. Iâll stay.â</p> 112 113<p>âThank you! Thatâs great. Oh, before I forget, one of the stroller wheels keeps turning sideways. Makes it drag a little, just fyi . . .â She is back to business, and I pull out my phone to text Everett, who is probably still in my bed.</p> 114 115<p>âHave to work late. Go back to New Haven if you want to. Will feel bad if you stay an extra day. Donât be mad.â I
115send the text and then regret that last insecure sentence.</p> 116 117<p>Everett, my good friend from grad school, had shown up unannounced at my door at 9:30 last night with two things on his mind, both of which kept me tossing and turning longer than preferable. Iâm not used to having another person in my space all night, so at 6:37 a.m. I was wide awake and spinning, despite having slept for only a couple of hours. Mornings with Gretchen and the boys are more difficult if I make less-than-stellar choices the night before, but on the whole, I like my employment situation and would like it to stay as it is. I have no family in New York, and barely any of my friends from school have relocated here. Gretchenâs family has become somewhat of a refuge for me in this city, where everyone is in such a hurry not to look each other in the eye. Babysitting in Manhattan is a decent living, and since keeping a roof over my head is a priority for me, working for Gretchen has been ideal. But that isnât a thing you can say to someone like Everettâsomeone who proclaims he would rather eat chickpeas out of a tin can in a basement in Bay Ridge than sacrifice one minute where he could be Making Art. Luckily, his trust fund and his acceptance to Yaleâs doctoral program have kept him from such a fate thus far.</p> 118 119<p>âMe riding in the troller, Tahr-lette?â George asks, bringing me back to the present.</p> 120 121<p>âYes, bug, youâre riding in the stroller.â</p> 122 123<p>âAnd we go get Matt?â</p> 124 125<p>âYes, weâre picking up Matt,â I say. Impatience wonât do; the day is just starting, and itâs a marathon, not a sprint. George is at that toddler stage of communication where I have to repeat everything he says back to him, so he can be sure his objectives are understood and will be met. âCan you fasten those shoes, pal? Do you need a little help?â</p> 126 127<p>âMe do it,â he says, with great authority.</p> 128 129<p>âGood job, Georgie,â Gretchen says, leaning down to kiss him. âMommy has to go and run a few errands, and Iâll see you in a little bit.</p> 130 131<p>âGrocery tore, Mommy?â</p> 132 133<p>âYes, and the drug store, and the library. And maybe Banana Republic,â she says to me with mock apology. âIâm a sucker for the forty-percent-off signs.â</p> 134 135<p>âMe too,â I say.</p> 136 137<p>âYou and Matt are going to play on the playground with Charlotte,â Gretchen says to George.</p> 138 139<p>âMe go down that widdle side, Mommy?â</p> 140 141<p>âWhich little slide?â</p> 142 143<p>âThat widdle twisty side?â</p> 144 145<p>âSure, you can show Charlotte that little twisty slide.â</p> 146 147<p>âThat sounds like fun, Georgie,â I say.</p> 148 149<p>Gretchen slings her bag over her shoulder, not Marc Jacobs, not Chanel, even though I know she can afford it. âOkay, you guys,â she says. âHave fun. See you later.â</p> 150 151<p>âBye, Mommy!â</p> 152 153<p>âBye-bye, honey.â</p> 154 155<p>I start to gather up our things for an outing, but the stroller-packing process is sluggish for many reasons, none of which I can attribute to Georgie.</p> 156 157<p>âWeâre gonna need to stop for something caffeinated,â I say. âIâm as slow as a baby in a lead diaper today.â George laughs so hard he falls over sideways. He loves to be in on jokes about babies.</p> 158 159<p>âThe Philharmonic is playing my first solo piece in the next concert series,â Everett had said last night when I, already in my pajamas, had opened my door to him. âAt Carnegie Hall.â He said it casually, like it was no big deal, even though we both knew it was. At the same time, he was holding up a bottle of really nice bourbon as if we were celebrating, and the juxtaposition confused me. How did he want me to react?</p> 160 161<p>After weâd finished our masterâs program, Everett had taken a year off to see what kind of work he might be interested in pursuing, and then applied to Yale the following year to become a doctor of musical arts. Heâd had minor projects come and go, but nothing on this scale, which is how Iâd justified not being in attendance for any of them in the past few years. This was a big one. I should have been going crazy, and he should have been going crazy. Instead, we acted like we were sitting around the poker table, waiting for the other one to give up a tell.</p> 162 163<p>âYou should come with me to hear it,â he said, while I was busy not saying anything, like an asshole. âIâll take you to the after-party. And we can sit in the audience together and be elitist. Or mock other people for being elitist. Your choice.â</p> 164 165<p>âOnly if you promise not to crush all the tiny bones in my hand if the first violin goes sharp,â I said.</p> 166 167<p>âSo, youâll come?â</p> 168 169<p>âAh . . . when is it?â</p> 170 171<p>âSix weeks.â</p> 172 173<p>âAre you frantically rewriting?â</p> 174 175<p>âMore constantly than frantically.â</p> 176 177<p>I squeezed my fingers together to relieve the tension in them as I stared at Everett, still just outside the door to my apartment, and I tried to think of something to say. Indecision overwhelmed me, but it wasnât an unfamiliar feeling, particularly in my recent history. Three years ago, my life had been as linear as a road map, the progression so natural that sometimes it took me a while to notice the milestones. I could draw a straight line from Yamaha preschool to the beloved record player my parents kept in our upstairs hallway, where I would sit and fixate for hours as a kid; from the evolution of my high school passions, Joni Mitchell to Vivaldi to Sondheim to the Clash; from conservatory in the Midwest, to graduate school in New York, to scholarships and recitals and being chosen over and over and over.</p> 178 179<p>Itâs surprising and, at times, miraculous that original music can still be made when you think about how little we have to work with, melodically. There are only twelve notes on our Western musical scale. The difference between the me standing there last night, not offering any kind of enthusiastic welcome to Everett, and the me that existed three years ago has everything to do with that scale. Until three years ago, I had spent an absurd portion of my time putting those notes together, stacking them against each other, stretching them out, and manipulating them into the shape of things I heard in my head. In an oblivion born of constant, lifelong validation, I had thought that those things would be mine forever, the melodies I constructed, and that it would always be my choice when and how and with whom to share them.</p> 180 181<p>But that was not the case, and in hindsight, maybe it was naive of me to think that I would have all the time in the world to make those choices. You never know how important the things in your own mind are, that specific pattern of neuron firing that only <i>your</i> brain does, until someone takes them away from you.</p> 182 183<p>The realization came upon me so quickly that there was barely time for acceptance; there was nothing to do but stay put. It hadnât made sense to move to a different city, because everything would still be the same. There would still be a part of me that had been borne away without my consent, and there would still be the risk that it would happen again. I might as well be in New York City, where there were plenty of meanwhile jobs, places that I could enjoy predictability and a bit of financial security until I figured out what to do next.</p> 184 185<p>Meanwhile had lasted until now. And there was Everett, on my doorstep. I stepped back to let him in, feeling the unbalance of being thrown back three years in time. He was with me, but we werenât in the same place. <i>The Philharmonic. Carnegie Hall.</i> Two miles and a whole solar system away from my apartment by the East River.</p> 186 187<p>âIt sounds great,â I said. âItâs hard for me to take time off from work though, unless itâs an emergency.â</p> 188 189<p>âWhat, you canât afford it?â He retrieved a pack of cigarettes from the pocket of his jeans and stuck one behind his ear. Add that to the sweater he wore draped over his shoulders, and you had a portrait of old-money Delaware. Everett, as drawn by a caricature artist.</p> 190 191<p>âThatâs part of it. Itâs also hard on the family that I work for when Iâm not around.â</p> 192 193<p>âI thought the mother only worked part-time.â</p> 194 195<p>âShe does, but the boys have opposite schedules. A lot of their stuff overlaps,â I said. âAnyway, Iâll do my best. I really will.â I walked into the bathroom and shut the door, turning on the water and letting it run while I stood in front of the sink, alone, in the only place inside my small apartment that he couldnât invade. He doesnât know anything about life with kids, I reminded myself. No one does, unless they actually <i>have kids</i> to deal with.</p> 196 197<p>âThink these are getting too widdle,â says George, in the present. Iâm not sure what he means. Iâve packed the juice box and paper towel in the bottom of the stroller, along with my wallet, keys, and phone. I add two extra pairs of mittens and then do a check. Hand sanitizer: check. âToo widdle on my feet.â
197 Tissues: check. Bag of superheroes: check. âToo sah-mall, too sah-mall,â says George, and at the last minute I decide that Matt will probably want a snack, so I put in a granola bar and some veggie straws. I finish loading just as I hear a quiet thump-thump from the other room, and when I come back to the living room to check on Georgeâs progress, I find him rolling a tiny Corvette along the floor and over two mountains fashioned from his shoes, which are no longer on his feet.</p> 198 199<p>âWell, okay,â I say, reaching for his hand. âLetâs go find some different ones.â He follows me, happy not to have to repeat himself until the end of time.</p> 200 201<p>Everettâs reply to my text comes in as Iâm heading out the door with Georgie, but itâs a little too explicit for me to answer while Iâm wheeling a stroller down the sidewalk.</p> 202 203<p class="center">BUY THE BOOK:<br /> 204<a href="https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1627794018/ref=as_li_qf_sp_asin_il_tl?ie=UTF8&tag=allthetimeintheworld-20&camp=1789&creative=9325&linkCode=as2&creativeASIN=1627794018&linkId=88551c47d3277a5d5e498865d7fa3992" onClick="ga('send', 'event', 'BuyLink', 'Amazon-PB', '9781627794015 Caroline Angell', 1, false);" target="_blank"><img src="images/buybuttons/set2/amazon.png" alt="Buy All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at Amazon" title="Buy All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at Amazon" width="111" height="50" /></a> <a href="http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/all-the-time-in-the-world-caroline-angell/1122749467?ean=9781627794015" onClick="ga('send', 'event', 'BuyLink', 'BN-PB', '9781627794015 Caroline Angell', 1, false);" target="_blank"><img src="images/buybuttons/set2/bn.png" alt="Buy All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at Barnes & Noble" title="Buy All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at Barnes & Noble" width="111" height="50" /></a> <a href="http://www.indiebound.org/book/9781627794015?aff=henryholt1" onClick="ga('send', 'event', 'BuyLink', 'Indiebound-PB', '9781627794015 Caroline Angell', 1, false);" target="_blank"><img src="images/buybuttons/set2/indiebound.png" alt="Buy All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at Indiebound" title="Buy All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at Indiebound" width="111" height="50" /></a> <a href="https://geo.itunes.apple.com/us/book/all-the-time-in-the-world/id1069883670?mt=11&at=1l3vqPU" onClick="ga('send', 'event', 'BuyLink', 'Apple-E', '9781627794022 Caroline Angell', 1, false);" target="_blank"><img src="images/buybuttons/set2/ibooks.png" alt="Buy the ebook edition of All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at the Apple iBookstore" title="Buy the ebook edition of All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at the Apple iBookstore" width="111" height="50" /></a> <a href="http://www.audible.com/pd/Fiction/All-the-Time-in-the-World-Audiobook/B01I0I9RFM/ref=a_search_c4_1_4_srTtl?qid=1468265112&sr=1-4" onClick="ga('send', 'event', 'BuyLink', 'Audible-Audio', '9781627794022 Caroline Angell', 1, false);" target="_blank"><img src="images/buybuttons/set2/audible.png" alt="Buy the ebook edition of All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at the Audible" title="Buy the ebook edition of All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at Audible" width="111" height="50" /></a></p> 205 206<p><b>February, two years before</b></p> 207 208<p>âCome on in,â Gretchen says, smiling, as she holds the door open. She is blonde, and she looks like a catalogue model. âMatthew isnât feeling very well today, so heâs been on the couch for a while. George doesnât walk yet, but heâs a really fast crawler, so watch your step!â</p> 209 210<p>Gretchen and her husband, Scotty, found me on an Internet babysitting service. Iâm not sure what it was I wrote that caught their attention, but if I had to guess, Iâd say it was probably the lines about my musical background. Iâd decided to leave out the part about my masterâs in composition in order to make myself sound less educated and therefore within a reasonable price range, or so I told myself. I suppose itâs also possible that I wanted to make babysitting sound less like a job that I was hoping to fill in the gap with while I figured out how to use that masterâs in composition to take the next steps in my career. Whatever the reason, the sentence had boiled down to something like âComing from a fam
210ily with strong creative values, I frequently use music and singing to engage the children.â Iâm glad that Gretchen and Scotty decided to overlook the questionable grammatical structureâcreative values? Like maybe my family takes liberties with traditional values? Or perhaps my family made up their own values, creatively?âand instead chose to pay attention to how I might teach their children the âItsy Bitsy Spider.â</p> 211 212<p>âItâs awesome to meet you guys,â I say. âDo you mind if I wash my hands really quick? Iâve been on the bus.â</p> 213 214<p>As I wash my hands with the orange-creamsicle-scented foaming soap, I repeat their names to myself. George, Matthew. Iâm relieved not to have to summon an earnest inquiry as to which of her family members she named little Fieldston after.</p> 215 216<p>âYour apartment is lovely,â I say, once Iâve found my way back to the foyer, and itâs the understatement of the millennium. Her apartment is unbelievable. I canât see to the end of it on any one side.</p> 217 218<p>âThank you,â she says, leading me to the kitchen table. The kids are visible through the archway to the living room. âItâs an old building, so it has its quirks, but we really love it here.â</p> 219 220<p>When sheâs ascertained the requisite information (I live about a mile away; my schedule is somewhat flexible; thereâs no evidence that Iâm a serial killer), the conversation turns to music, confirming my suspicions that she likes the idea of that influence around her kids.</p> 221 222<p>âYouâll have to forgive my ignorance. I know nothing about it, obviously, but you said youâre a composer, right? Or that you went to school for composition?â</p> 223 224<p>
224âYes,â I say, without elaborating. I donât want anything we discuss to give her an idea of how temporary this job might be for me.</p> 225 226<p>âAnd whatâs the difference between a composer and a songwriter? Or <i>is</i> there a difference?â</p> 227 228<p>âNot really,â I say. âYou might call yourself a songwriter if what you really wanted to do is write pop music or songs that people would hear on the radio. But a songwriter is just a specific kind of composer, thatâs all.â</p> 229 230<p>âBut that isnât what you want to do?â she asks. âBe on the radio? Write songs for Justin Bieber?â</p> 231 232<p>âAlas, Iâm pretty sure the Biebs writes his own stuff,â I say.</p> 233 234<p>âBummer,â she says, and we both laugh.</p> 235 236<p>âI used to love writing with other people, or for them. Back when I was in school, I mean,â I add, hoping she wonât notice or question the âused to.â</p> 237 238<p>âAll I remember from my music classes as a kid are mnemonic devices for the notes, and trying to figure out what key something is in using tiny number signs,â says Gretchen.</p> 239 240<p>âRight, and lowercase bâs,â I say. âThere was a fair amount of theory, for sure. I took a bunch of seminars, and my favorite was on collaborative composition. I really loved writing with a group on a specific project because there was something about it that let me communicate in a different way than when I was just hanging out, being regular Charlotte. Iâm not cut out for performing, but I did my internship with an orchestrator for musical theater, and I had a great time with that.â</p> 241 242<p>âThat sounds wonderful. Scotty and I love to see theater, if weâre ever in town at the same time,â says Gretchen. âHe gets really excited about it and does all this research. Heâd deny it, but I canât tell you how many times Iâve ended up at some downtown hole with thirty seats, watching something experimental that Scotty read about in the <i>Times</i> magazine. Especially before we had kids. So do you think thatâs the way youâll go, writing music collaboratively?â</p> 243 244<p>âI think I will go down whatever road presents itself,â I say, and a feeling rolls through me that I tell myself is anticipation but might be fear. Vague answers are not the way to connect with her, but I canât seem to stop myself from giving them.</p> 245 246<p>âWell, if you ever feel like youâre getting rusty, I know a couple of little kids whoâd love to collaborate with you. They have a whole bucket of instruments waiting to be used for their intended purpose,â she says.</p> 247 248<p>âSounds great,â I say.</p> 249 250<p>âSpeaking of the monkeys, are you ready to meet them?â She leads the way to the living room, where we ignore all the super nice furniture and sit down on the floor.</p> 251 252<p>She introduces me to the boys, who donât have much to say. After Gretchen and I have chatted for a while longer about allergies, likes and dislikes, schedules, and the satanic roots of gluten, she gives me the list of specific family obstacles.</p> 253 254<p>âScotty is away for work a lot of the timeâsometimes for a while, sometimes just overnight. I work part-time as a nutritionist, but most of my clients are in the neighborhood.â</p> 255 256<p>âOkay.â Little George is sidestepping his way around the coffee table. His hand grazes a little wooden nesting doll, causing it to wobble. I reach out automatically to steady it.</p> 257 258<p>âMatthew can be stubborn.â</p> 259 260<p>I consider telling her that I once babysat for a family who only wore underwear at homeâMom, both kids, <i>and</i> Dadâwhatâs a little stubbornness compared to the house where pants go to die? I decide to reserve this anecdote for the future, as pants-less households arenât always considered an agreeable topic for polite conversation. âOkay. Whatâs your normal policy for handling that?â</p> 261 262<p>âI try to talk him out of it. And if that doesnât work, a little bribery goes a long way.â</p> 263 264<p>Iâm surprised at thisânot surprised that she employs this age-old and incredibly effective tacticâbut surprised that sheâll admit it with no apparent shame. âOkay, ha, thatâs awesome. Iâll follow your lead,â I
264say.</p> 265 266<p>âAnd weâre a little bit afraid that George will never speak.â She is perfectly pleasant, but I decide that she is not joking. Indeed, George has continued to crawl around us on the floor, picking things up, getting into other things, playing with toys, and pulling himself up to sidle along the furniture, but I havenât heard even a squawk out of him.</p> 267 268<p>âHe cries, so we know he can use his voice, but other than that, he doesnât make noise, vocally. No chatting or laughing or anything. Matt was chatting up a storm when he was Georgeâs age.â</p> 269 270<p>âHow old is he?â I ask.</p> 271 272<p>âHeâs thirteen months, and Matt is almost four.â</p> 273 274<p>âWhen do you turn four, pal?â I address the question to Matthew, who is lying on the chaise lounge with both feet up on the wall behind it. He frowns at me and doesnât answer. How dare you interrupt my <i>Spiderman</i> cartoon, stranger.</p> 275 276<p>âMatty, can you please answer Charlotteâs question?â</p> 277 278<p>He sort of harrumphs and stares even harder at the flickering screen. Peter Parker is getting romantic with a girl from another galaxy. Racy.</p> 279 280<p>âSweetheart, if youâre going to be impolite, weâll have to turn off the TV.â</p> 281 282<p>âJune sixth,â he grumbles.</p> 283 284<p>âHey,â I say to him. âThat looks like a bed pillow youâre holding, not a couch pillow.â He narrows his eyes at me, trying to assess what Iâm all about. âWhen I was a kid, I always tried to trick my mom into letting me have a bed pillow on the couch. Did you trick your mom too? Or did she make an exception because youâre not feeling too well?â He gives me a small smile, then turns his attention back to galaxy-girlâs invisible aircraft.</p> 285 286<p>âSo weâre going ahead with Georgie as if everything is fine,â says Gretchen. âThe pediatrician thinks a year and a month is too young to have him evaluated, and Scotty and I agree.â She catches George as he passes by on one of his laps, adjusting one of the tabs on the side of his diaper and then releasing him again, all in one fluid motion. âScotty, Matty, Georgie. Everyone has an âee.â Except for me. Iâll have to be called Mommy to fit in. I told Scotty he could start a thing with âGretchyâ over my dead body. Youâll have to watch out. Charlie, Lottie, Iâm sure they could think of one.â</p> 287 288<p>âThe options are grim,â I say.</p> 289 290<p>George turns from the glass end table he is holding on to and faces where we sit on the floor. He takes four tottering steps in our direction, becomes unstable and squats, then stands back up and staggers all the way to Gretchenâs outstretched arms.</p> 291 292<p>âScratch what I said earlier. I guess he walks now,â she says, and I look at her expression and Georgeâs expression, and I am hooked.</p> 293 294<p class="center">BUY THE BOOK:<br /> 295<a href="https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1627794018/ref=as_li_qf_sp_asin_il_tl?ie=UTF8&tag=allthetimeintheworld-20&camp=1789&creative=9325&linkCode=as2&creativeASIN=1627794018&linkId=88551c47d3277a5d5e498865d7fa3992" onClick="ga('send', 'event', 'BuyLink', 'Amazon-PB', '9781627794015 Caroline Angell', 1, false);" target="_blank"><img src="images/buybuttons/set2/amazon.png" alt="Buy All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at Amazon" title="Buy All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at Amazon" width="111" height="50" /></a> <a href="http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/all-the-time-in-the-world-caroline-angell/1122749467?ean=9781627794015" onClick="ga('send', 'event', 'BuyLink', 'BN-PB', '9781627794015 Caroline Angell', 1, false);" target="_blank"><img src="images/buybuttons/set2/bn.png" alt="Buy All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at Barnes & Noble" title="Buy All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at Barnes & Noble" width="111" height="50" /></a> <a href="http://www.indiebound.org/book/9781627794015?aff=henryholt1" onClick="ga('send', 'event', 'BuyLink', 'Indiebound-PB', '9781627794015 Caroline Angell', 1, false);" target="_blank"><img src="images/buybuttons/set2/indiebound.png" alt="Buy All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at Indiebound" title="Buy All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at Indiebound" width="111" height="50" /></a> <a href="https://geo.itunes.apple.com/us/book/all-the-time-in-the-world/id1069883670?mt=11&at=1l3vqPU" onClick="ga('send', 'event', 'BuyLink', 'Apple-E', '9781627794022 Caroline Angell', 1, false);" target="_blank"><img src="images/buybuttons/set2/ibooks.png" alt="Buy the ebook edition of All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at the Apple iBookstore" title="Buy the ebook edition of All the Time in the World by Caroline Angell at the Apple iBookstore" width="111" height="50" /></a>
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